If I had not kept all the notes, stories, and thoughts preciously written on many flying papers that I keep in a cupboard, I would have forgotten how I have come to change so much in so little time.

This is why I came here, after all, to change.
Now, everything seems to make sense so perfectly...well, I suppose that I could thank him for making my personal life a bliss. And thank the people who helped me to come here, of course, and made my stay here possible. I should thank the people who encouraged me, and even those who didn't: at least they taught me endurance in keeping one's opinion of life.

My objectives are clear, even though sometimes the path that I take is unsure and dark. But that's what Paulo Coelho calls "to accept to enter the Dark Night". Sometimes you have to accept to go somewhere where you know nothing, where everything is strange or profoundly unfamiliar. That's what I did when coming here. But that's what I still do, in many aspects. I have to plunge myself into work, not even sure if the result will be good, just in order to test myself and see my capacities revealed to me. I have to give access to what I feel, even if it's frightening and unsettling, and even if I'm used to have my comfortable security walls around me. I'm learning to give, and not to pity myself too much.
Right now, I'm dreaming of taking care of sick people, and giving my time to others, in order to forget myself. I guess that's not a bad thing.

What I learn here at the University stimulates my intellect, my imagination, pushes the limits of my perception, and shows me that other ways of seeing the world and my own country is possible. It is good not to wallow in the same way of thinking anymore.
With what I learn here, I am forging arms for when I come back to my other country. I want to face the problems that hurt us, I want to be able to understand who we came to this.
Then, more importantly, I want to come back with ideas to make the situation evolve.

So, so far so good, I might say
Apparently, New Zealand brought me a lot of good, even if most of the things that happened to me were for the most part totally unexpected ^^ But I guess, this is why I came here after all...